♫ Location: My room
Wearing: Jammies
Listening: Kings of Leon - Use Somebody
Plugging: Kara Goucher tags on Fitsugar
Eating/Drinking: Water
Reading: The Hour I First Believed, Wally Lamb
Thinking: I think I'll marry you
Feeling:

Tags

random food birthdays crafting decorating friends health and fitness Islam personal sewing work university shopping legal ramblings news festivities holidays web designing

Plugables Credits: un deux trois quatre rearrange

This is where I define myself ♥ Mardy thrives in sunshine filled days just like the plastic solar plant on your dashboard. Gets regular doses of drugs from her running shoes (no high like a runners' high). Dares to be different. Is generally happy albeit those typical daily complaints. Smiling doesn't hurt, plan to do it more often.

What this girl wants
1. A white Macbook
2. New handphone (no idea what yet)
3. New running shoes and gear
4. Gym membership at Celebrity Fitness, Wangsa Maju
5. Buffet dinner with her two best girls at Tenji
6. New wardrobe for work and play
7. New watch (Fossil would be cool)
8. Proactive skincare
9. Good quality make-up set for daily use
10. Holiday at the end of the year with her best friend

This blog is listed at:

Archives
When I decide to leave you

Thursday, January 8, 20099:30 PMWhen I decide to leave you

Don't ever think that if one day I have to bring myself to leave you, it means I don't love you anymore.

You will never know how much I love you, because I will never tell you. I hardly demand you to know. Maybe one day you will find out for yourself, if you wish to know.

This is what leaving means to me. To you it means this person does not care for you anymore, but to me it means giving up the person I love very much because I want the best for him. Because I don't want to stand in his way making him feel guilty when he deserves nothing less than pure happiness. Because I'd rather, much much rather suffer because I miss him so much than to selfishly stay when it is hard for him.

Everything I ever did for you, I did it without asking for anything in return. You don't have to pay me back, I never expected you to. I always hide my tears away from you because I hate to see you worry. I hate to burden you with my heartaches and fears.

I don't know what happiness means to you, but I pray you will get it and keep it with you your entire life.

Please know that if the time comes for me to let you go, all it means is I am giving up my own happiness, so you will be able to fully enjoy yours.

So if I ever meant anything to you, please promise me you will be happy, and you will take care of those you love dearly. That is all I ask from you.

Leaving means I love you and you deserve the best, and I know the best is not me.

Labels: personal

9 had kissed me

<$BlogCommentBody$>

By <$BlogCommentAuthor$>, at <$BlogCommentDateTime$> <$BlogCommentDeleteIcon$>

Blow me kisses